I never wanted to be here…..
My body, thoughts and emotions just never ‘fitted’;
I was never happy;
As I child I didn’t fit in with my family,
Always wondering what the hell I was doing here;
Everything was clumsy and wrong;
I certainly didn’t fit into school and never got along with teachers or education;
Seen as a ‘rebel’ it wasn’t intentional I was dysfunctional according to the social norms;
I ran with the other ‘rebels’ because there was nothing else to do but even that wasn’t me;
I didn’t love or hate I was simply in the wrong place.

I was drawn to oriental philosophy because it was right brained;
Martial arts, Buddhism, Taoism and Zen I understood;
The concept that my body thoughts and emotions are all ‘conditions’ made sense as in an ignorant way I had always known that;
I had never feared death as I’d always seen it as a release from this uncomfortable situation I’d found myself in;
Sitting in the unconditioned was like finally finding home.

Life is easier when you understand that we truly are in this all together;
Our purpose is to realise that when we find empathy and compassion we can work together to ease global pain and suffering;
It’s simple but the paradigm we find ourself in means that it’s not easy;
But then – what else is there to do?