We never really know ourselves because we can’t look back down our own eyes. In hindsight I realise that I’ve never wanted to be alive so have never had the need to joyfully engage. I never got on with my family and couldn’t wait to leave home, hated school so didn’t bother to go or learn, failed all exams miserably. Social life was pubs and nightclubs because I couldn’t think of anything else so just ran with the gangs. Didn’t read a book until I started meditating in my 20’s and then couldn’t stop, because there was no internet and … Continue reading Learning To Look Inward
I was watching a TV programme and someone asked a man whose son had been murdered how he was doing and he said “fine, for 10 seconds a day – then I remember that my son is dead.” This is an excellent description of grief or PTSD where you don’t just suffer it once, that sense of dread keeps recurring in waves again and again. Every day I wake up I feel fine for 10 seconds and then I move and the realisation, shock and horror of having my leg amputated occurs again and this still occurs many times a … Continue reading How Grief Occurs
When you finally find what’s absolutely right for you in your martial arts training and meditation and you internalise it you don’t need to rationalise why you do it. I practice every day religiously, like saying my prayers and have practiced in my hospital bed laying, sitting, in a wheelchair (my current location for training) in my garden, in parks in my Dojo and every other location you can think of. I train for me. Not to fight anymore, not for how it looks and not for what others might think of me or what I do. It’s deeply personal, … Continue reading Training For Life
Teaching Mikey this morning he made the point that I should record some of the things that I would rarely get to teach and this morning we were discussing how I train using a chant to alchemise the chakras. The chant is traditionally used to raise the kundalini – the energy up the spine. To do this we have to release and then activate the areas of the spine that relate to the chakras. The chant is Ra Ma Da Sa – Sa Sei So Hung.Ra is the root chakra and raises the powerful life or death jing energy.Ma is … Continue reading Chants And Chakras
It’s important to understand insight. We create a mindful state to allow insight to arise. It arises from the unconditioned, immortal, unborn, unformed part of our mind and by its very nature escapes definition. Insight creates wisdom, it allows our mind to see what is otherwise hidden. Therefore it is an important skill to develop. Good posture allows deeper breathing.Deeper breathing calms the body.As the body calms so does the emotions.As the emotions calm so does the mind.By focusing on our breathing this develops our sensitivity and focuses the mind.This opens a portal into the unconditioned, immortal, wordless mind.This allows … Continue reading The Power Of Insight
Know the difference! So called ‘friends and family’ who only like you when you do what they want and turn on you when you don’t are not ‘friends or family’. Dump them. Real friends and family let you be who you are and support you to grow and when you’re down. You’d think that was obvious. Yet I constantly watch people who are having the knife twisted in their guts by bullying, narcissistic family and so called friends who they cling to because they think that they are ‘family and friends’. Real friends are then discarded because they are seen … Continue reading Stand Up To Abuse!
Why does your dog love you? They say that if you want to know who loves you most, lock your wife and dog in the boot of your car and then see who is most pleased to see you 😀 But seriously, how does your dog love you unconditionally? It’s because he doesn’t see you as separate to him. When he looks at you he sees you as a part of him, that’s why you can have a dog around and ‘meld’ with a non human and experience a time of love and harmony that can help you to see … Continue reading Why Does Your Dog Love You?
How I meditate. As many people have problems and I’ve meditated consistently for many years I thought I’d give some personal information. Deep breathing calms the body, the emotions and the mind. So I sit and allow it to do it’s work. I ‘leave both doors open’ so thoughts and emotions come and go but the breathing will make them subside into stillness. I find my natural breathing pattern by waiting to breathe in until the body does it for me in a natural way from the dantien point. During this time as I’m waiting, I separate from my body … Continue reading How I Meditate
Why do we feel vulnerable? We were quadrupeds that stood up to become bipeds possibly to walk further in the heat to get food but essentially we’re still built like quadrupeds. This means that we face the world and others with our ‘underbelly’. That’s our vulnerability. To understand this is important, we naturally have a soft front and a strong back and can use this to our advantage. Meet the world with your empowered ‘yin’ front, meet it with courtesy, politeness and a caring, giving, empathic, compassionate front. Just understand that it is supported by a strong back. Train your … Continue reading A Soft Front And A Strong Back
Mindfulness is not something you do for an hour a day it’s something thing you do to reinforce the mindful state for an hour a day. Then during the day you are able to watch your mind and all the decisions you make. We often make decisions mindlessly and based on the the way we have been indoctrinated by others, mindfulness allows us to review our choices and decide from a far more insightful point of view. Mindfulness showed me how to decide based on compassion, when anger arose instead of wanting to hurt or punish someone I could make … Continue reading Mindfulness All Day