Happiness Is An Illusion

Happiness as we know it is an illusionThe moment you ‘try’ to be happyYou’ve already defeated yourselfYou’re carrying something that can be taken away from youTragedy strikes and is made worseBecause your illusion of happiness can’t be maintainedThere’s no one more annoying than the idiot wearing the ‘happy’ maskTelling everyone they’re happy and that everyone else should be like themAn idiot with a mask Life spontaneously occursMoment to momentSometimes it’s upSometimes it’s downIf you have no expectation of eitherThe feelings are genuineIf you expect one or the otherOr dwell on eitherYou are suffering unnecessarily I’m not happyBut I’m not unhappyI … Continue reading Happiness Is An Illusion

It’s 3am…

It’s 3am….I have ‘restless body syndrome’The immortal me wants to talkI have 2 partsThe mortal meAnd the immortal meThe ‘human being’ meAnd the ‘being human’ meThe indoctrinatedAnd the unindoctrinated When I start to meditateI breathe deepI find stillness and silenceThe body calmsThe emotions calmThe mind calmsAt first there’s confusionThen everything settles Like the windows on a computerEmotion and thought shut downAllowing the immortal me to come forwardThat which is always looking out my eyesWho I talk to when I talk to myselfStill, silent, and always presentWho I have always beenWho I was before I was bornWho I am when my … Continue reading It’s 3am…

The Power Of Nature

The Power Of Nature Sit in nature with an uncluttered mind and you can feel it. Our earth has an incredible power to reproduce, to survive and in balance to age, wither and die. This powerful energy drives the human body and emotions, it pervades all living things. It comes from the earth, doesn’t belong to us but is an incredibly powerful driver. If we don’t want to be subject to it we have to discipline, educate and alchemise it by understanding its basic needs of procreation and survival and observe the effects that it can have on our body … Continue reading The Power Of Nature

What Is Masculinity?

What Is Masculinity? A while back I wrote a post on femininity as I felt that a lot of posts on the subject at the time missed the mark. I’ll put a link to it in the comments. It has caused a few people to ask me to write one about masculinity, particularly after the ‘manosphere’ TV programme. In the pagan and Wicca world the masculine is born from the goddess at the winter solstice, reaches full power in the summer, and sacrifices himself in the autumn to ensure the fertility of the earth. He is Lord of the Underworld … Continue reading What Is Masculinity?

Find Your Being

Look into the eyes of any animal and you can see an intense ‘being’ looking back at you. We forget our human ‘being’ and it tends to lie dormant whilst our convoluted survival mechanism subjects us to its fears and anxieties. But our ‘being’ instantly recognises itself in the eyes of the animals and intensifies, this deep recognition reminds us of who we really are and is the reason that any decent human loves animals and has a primal empathy with them. We can use this to enhance our ‘beingness’ in meditation and training. This is why martial arts uses … Continue reading Find Your Being

Deep Trauma

Let’s talk about emotions. Most of them don’t hit deep and can be easily controlled. We think that some are deep but they’re not total trauma and with a lot of work can still be released. And then there is real deep trauma. It totally dominates you, you work hard on it and think you’ve coped but it rears up when you least expect it. Rape, abuse, total humiliation, permanent disability, cancer, the loss of someone really close to you, these are overwhelming and affect the rest of your life and cannot be escaped. People that have never suffered one … Continue reading Deep Trauma

Last Night’s Dream

My dream last night – It was a beautiful day,Clear skyPerfect temperatureThe smell of the first days of summerI was talking to a little Japanese man on the station platformHe was like my Karate Sensei Toru Takamizawa but wasn’t himI was telling himYou’re dead for a long timeDuring death you relive the important times in your lifeIn the dream stateThis is why it’s important to live a good, proper and full life whilst embodiedThen he was getting into a taxiI held the passenger door open and was finishing telling him thisBut the taxi driver was impatient and started driving offAs … Continue reading Last Night’s Dream

Beautiful Hands In Tai Chi

In Tai Chi we say that you should have beautiful, fluid, expressive hands. Fajin requires you to stimulate, store, release and discharge energy, for that transmission through the body requires loose, coordinated joints and soft tissue to bring the power to the hands, but it’s here that so many people lose it. The arches of the feet and palms of the hands are connected both physically and energetically, the drive from the feet with the loose joints and the body’s centre brings the bodyweight and momentum to the hands joining the energy released from the opening, closing, compressing and stretching … Continue reading Beautiful Hands In Tai Chi

Yield To A Good Teacher

Everyone wants to learn on their own terms. This is what holds them back. Remember those old Kung Fu movies where the kung fu monk wannabe would go to the temple and sit outside the gates for days before being accepted? They’d sweep the yard, scrub the floors and wash the others clothes for months to show commitment before being accepted. Even now, many students are abused, physically, mentally, sexually and financially by their ‘master’ because they wrongly assume that they’re going to get ‘the secrets’. Stupid eh? But….. the best way to really learn is to find a good … Continue reading Yield To A Good Teacher

The Importance Of Ritual

I’ve been asked to talk a little bit more about the importance of ritual. I’m ritual magic, before working on their inner self for healing and creating energy, the magicians would shower, anoint themselves with oils, wear a clean robe, go to the shrine room where they would keep a continuous flame burning 24/7. They would consecrate the space with water, and salt and cast a circle calling on the gods or elementals of 4 directions drawing symbols with a blade for protection. The preparation was important to create the right mindset to dig deep and do energetic work. In … Continue reading The Importance Of Ritual