Deep Trauma

Let’s talk about emotions. Most of them don’t hit deep and can be easily controlled. We think that some are deep but they’re not total trauma and with a lot of work can still be released. And then there is real deep trauma. It totally dominates you, you work hard on it and think you’ve coped but it rears up when you least expect it. Rape, abuse, total humiliation, permanent disability, cancer, the loss of someone really close to you, these are overwhelming and affect the rest of your life and cannot be escaped. People that have never suffered one … Continue reading Deep Trauma

Last Night’s Dream

My dream last night – It was a beautiful day,Clear skyPerfect temperatureThe smell of the first days of summerI was talking to a little Japanese man on the station platformHe was like my Karate Sensei Toru Takamizawa but wasn’t himI was telling himYou’re dead for a long timeDuring death you relive the important times in your lifeIn the dream stateThis is why it’s important to live a good, proper and full life whilst embodiedThen he was getting into a taxiI held the passenger door open and was finishing telling him thisBut the taxi driver was impatient and started driving offAs … Continue reading Last Night’s Dream

Yield To A Good Teacher

Everyone wants to learn on their own terms. This is what holds them back. Remember those old Kung Fu movies where the kung fu monk wannabe would go to the temple and sit outside the gates for days before being accepted? They’d sweep the yard, scrub the floors and wash the others clothes for months to show commitment before being accepted. Even now, many students are abused, physically, mentally, sexually and financially by their ‘master’ because they wrongly assume that they’re going to get ‘the secrets’. Stupid eh? But….. the best way to really learn is to find a good … Continue reading Yield To A Good Teacher

The Importance Of Ritual

I’ve been asked to talk a little bit more about the importance of ritual. I’m ritual magic, before working on their inner self for healing and creating energy, the magicians would shower, anoint themselves with oils, wear a clean robe, go to the shrine room where they would keep a continuous flame burning 24/7. They would consecrate the space with water, and salt and cast a circle calling on the gods or elementals of 4 directions drawing symbols with a blade for protection. The preparation was important to create the right mindset to dig deep and do energetic work. In … Continue reading The Importance Of Ritual

From Earth To Heaven

Nature’s incredible urge to bring life and to survive is the most powerful energy there is, to alchemise it into ‘heavenly energy’ is the gift to humanity. It’s still in its incipient stages as most people are subject to to the survival urge and can only react with fear, anxiety and addiction, sometimes the addiction is to ‘happiness’ that can only trap despair as its comparison. Understanding the need to survive, listening to our instincts, objectively viewing the anger, anxiety and addiction, understanding what they are, developing patient kindness, empathy and compassion, spreading it out into our life and environment, … Continue reading From Earth To Heaven

Never Say “It Can’t Get Any Worse”….

Never say “it can’t get any worse than this”… After my knee replacements I had continuous infections and had to have 25 surgeries with 3 life threatening sepsis attacks. It thought it couldn’t get worse. It did. My leg had to be amputated. Surely it couldn’t get worse? It did. I got cancer. That had to be the bottom, it couldn’t get worse than that. The bottom fell out. My wife of 43 years died suddenly. Every time I thought it can’t get any worse than this….. it did. Each time it left me empty, hollow, when everything had been … Continue reading Never Say “It Can’t Get Any Worse”….

The Best Way To Start Tai Chi

The best way to start in any martial art and particularly Tai Chi is with posture and breathing exercises. Good posture gets rid of excess tension and allows for deep breathing, balance and mobility. Deep breathing calms the body, emotions and mind. When the mind follows the breath, the energy moves with it. This brings about a state of mindfulness and the ability to manipulate energy. In my Tai Chi this is then the foundation for qigong exercises, forms and push hands, done ‘monk style’ for self healing, and then taken into applications and weapons ‘warrior style’ for further health, … Continue reading The Best Way To Start Tai Chi

How I Became Vegetarian

It was the 70’s.I’d been dragged up on a South London council estate, gone to the worst school in London, left school with no qualifications and drifted from job to job falling into the security world. From boxing, kickboxing to karate and spit and sawdust gyms doing bodybuilding to bulk up for the violence incurred at work. I thought respect, friendship and love, were all based on other people’s fear of me…. Until Tai Chi led me into the Taoist, Zen and Buddhist practice of mindfulness. I found dependent origination and the practice of patient kindness – that led me … Continue reading How I Became Vegetarian

The Kung Fu of Tai Chi

10 hours of intensive private lessons over 2 days for 2 of my best Tai Chi students from the Czech Republic that I’ve known and taught for around 35 years. These kind of relationships are worth their weight in gold for both me and them. People often talk about the ‘secrets’ of Tai Chi and how the deeper teachings are ‘held back’ but the truth is that the students can only understand at a level that their study and training has taken them. All the ‘secrets’ are taught right at the beginning, but it takes decades for the student to … Continue reading The Kung Fu of Tai Chi

A New Age

Traditionally men were the hunters and providers for the family.They were the warriors and protectors. Women were the homemakers and brought up the children.They were the healers and nourishers . This balance worked for the majority but didn’t cater for anyone outside those traditional roles. They were demonised. The 60’s started the change, many men became more effeminate and many women more masculine. This trend continued through the decades until gender and its infinite variations ceased to have any meaning and anyone could play any role, but most didn’t realise we still had a patriarchal society under the guise of … Continue reading A New Age